I need to write this part carefully because it is the part I understand best and like least.
He was twenty-six when his mother gave him signature authority.
He was not made a director and he was not consulted about anything. She put his name on the bank mandate, at a kitchen table, in about four minutes, and told him it was so that things could keep moving when she travelled.
For the first two years he signed what he was handed.
By year three he understood. I know that because the state’s people established it, and because there is an email from him in 2021 that asks his mother, in one line, whether Corvin is real.
She did not answer it. There is no reply in the chain.
And by then his name was on more than three hundred payments.
That is the whole of my husband. That is the entire explanation for a man who read that his wife was in an emergency department and sent a thumbs-up.
He was not choosing his mother over me. He was standing on the only piece of floor he had left, and every single time he was asked to make it a big deal, the arithmetic came back the same way: three hundred signatures.
I understand it completely.
And I want to say, as flatly as I can, that understanding it has never once done anything for me.
He knew what she was, in a way I did not. He had thirty-six years of her. He knew what she was capable of in a kitchen far better than I did when I changed that password, and he was on a boat, and his phone had my message on it saying I was in an emergency department.
A man can be trapped and still spend four seconds typing an actual sentence.
He had four seconds and he used them on a thumbs-up.
That is the only thing about Dorian Strand that I have never been able to file anywhere, and it is not the fraud, and it is not the three hundred signatures.
I do not think about him. That took about a year and it is true now.