I got on a plane to my mother’s hospital and my husband was eleven rows in front of me with my best friend. There was a note of hers in my handbag that she’d written on my fridge that morning.

That is Part Four.

PART 4 — DEV

Saskia’s husband is called Dev and I have known him as long as I have known her.

In the June of last year — eighteen months ago — he tried to tell me.

I did not know that was what he was doing. I want to be completely fair to myself because there is enough here without inventing more.

He came over to me at a barbecue with his phone in his hand and he was not having a good night and he had definitely had a couple.

And he said: “Fran. Can I show you something.”

And I said what.

And he got about as far as unlocking it.

That is the whole of what happened and I will do the rest of it properly in Part Five, because of what I said and who was standing there.

They separated in the March of this year. Nine months after that barbecue.