Josephine Ruth arrived three weeks later, at 4:47 in the morning, seven pounds and two ounces, with dark hair and a furious expression that made the midwife laugh.
I named her after my grandmother and Mark’s mother, in that order.
Ruth cried when I told her.
She was in the waiting room, and when the nurse brought her in she stood at the edge of the room with both hands pressed to her mouth and didn’t move for a long moment.
“Come meet her,” I said.
She came.
She held Josephine very carefully, like something she wasn’t sure she deserved.
“I’m sorry,” she said quietly, to the baby or to me or to both of us.
“I should have told you.”
“I know.”
“I was trying to protect him.”
“I know that too.”
She looked up.
“Are you going to be able to forgive me?”
I thought about it honestly.
“I think so.
Not yet.
But I think so.”
She nodded and looked back down at Josephine, who had gone to sleep with the absolute confidence of someone who had no idea how complicated the world she’d arrived in was.
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Diane sent flowers to the hospital.
A small arrangement, yellow and white, with a card that said: *Congratulations.
She’s lucky to have you.
— D and Daniel.*
I kept the card.
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